“Tis a point I long to know, it often causes anxious thought. Do I love the Lord, or no? Am I His, or am I not?
If I love, why am I thus? Why this dull and lifeless frame? Hardly, sure, can they be worse, who have never heard His Name.
Could my heart so hard remain, prayer a task and burden prove; every trifle gives me pain, if I knew the Savior’s love?
When I turn my eyes within, all is dark, and vain, and wild; filled with unbelief and sin. . .Can I deem myself His child?
If I pray or hear or read, sin is mixed with all I do. You that love the Lord indeed, tell me. . .is it thus with you?
Yet I mourn my stubborn will, find my sin a grief and thrall; should I grieve for what I feel. . .if I did not love at all?
Could I joy, His saints to meet and choose the ways I once abhorred. Find, at times the promise sweet. . .if I did not Love the Lord?
Lord, decide this doubtful case! Thou who are thy people’s Sun. Shine upon Thy work of Grace. . .if it be indeed begun.
Let me love thee more and more, if I love at all, I pray. If I have not loved before. . .Help me to begin today.” John Newton
A Good Moment 